Death over Desertion

If given a chance to read apology,

Like Plato in love of Socrates.

As he chose to die as a priority,

And not desert that civilized states

Of Greek antiquity

How such idea predominates?

Is this even sanity ?

Now my inner relates,

As I loose credibility.

And fear of desertion within me incorporates,

I went through panic attacks and severe anxiety.

With his pain my heart associates,

Who chose death over desertion from civility.

And same spirit my heart locates,

I prefer death than to loose your society.

Wish me well as this painful path initiates

My worlds a chaos, I prefer death with alacrity.